So, if you have been following my blog (or not following, as it has been) you will see that I haven’t blogged since Christmas. Life caught up with me in a big way and I was doing well to just keep breathing. But with the big kid back in college and the not-so-little-kid back in school (Junior high! How did that happen?), I’m determined to get back to blogging on a regular basis. Please extend me a bit of grace while I clear out the cobwebs.
I moved. Not far, just a block from my own house, but moving is a bitch always. But then I redecorate, which was sort of, kind of fun (in a creative, yet tortuous way). I promise to blog about that because I did some pretty cool stuff, even a few DIYs which is so out my comfort zone that I must invite you all over (through my blog) and show off my fabulous projects.
I took my daughter to France, a week after we moved – just because I wanted to push the crazy lever up as far as it could go. I will blog about that trip because we really had a good time and I will take any excuse to talk or write about France.
I had some personal challenges as well that sucked the life out of me. I sure that I am personally financing the redecorating of my therapist’s beach house.
I started meditating. It’s been good for me. And it’s free.
I had a birthday. Actually it was a very nice birthday with lots of celebrating with family and friends, but birthdays always get me in a reflective mood. Anne Lamott is always good for a life-check. This quote by Mary Oliver especially struck a cord with me: “Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?”
What indeed? What am I going to do with my one wild and precious life? I thought about it and on the eve of my birthday I wrote this response:
Time is passing swiftly. I could die tomorrow of course. But even if I don’t, I am aware of how much I want to live. I have been on a mission for the last few years to live LOUD and I want to turn it up even more. This does not mean I want a fast car and no responsibilities. On the contrary I want to be responsibly aware of all the gifts and blessings in my life.
I want my faith to be LOUD: in constant communication with and worship of God, living to glorify him in all that I do.
I want to be LOUD with people: authentic, helpful and kind.
I want to travel through the world LOUD: being fully present and immersed wherever I am.
I want to take care of my body LOUD: feeding it the best food, giving it both proper rest and exercise, being mindful of how it changes and feels daily and treating it kindly.
I want to notice everything in my path with LOUD awareness from the way that a hawk circling the sky is both scary and awesome to the emerging beauty of my daughter. Like Alice Walker said in The Color Purple: “I think it pisses God off when you walk by the color purple in a field somewhere and don’t notice it.” I want to always notice the color purple.
My friend is dying. She’s my age. This is not a dress rehearsal.
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